I FOUND THIS PERSONS BLOG ON GOOGLE BLOGS. I COMMENTED AND WROTE A LONG STORY ABOUT WHO I WAS ASSOCIATED WITH HER FAMILY AND MY OWN . BEAUSE SHE HAD ENCOUNTERED SIMILAR TRAGIC CIRCUMSTANCES OR LOSS OF LOVED ONE AND WAS EXPRESSING ANGER AT TIME MY OWN LIFE WAS GOING TO EXPIRE FORM THE TOTAL INDIFFERENCE GIVEN TO ME BY HER FAMILY MY OWN ASSOCITED WITH HERS, THAT RAN PARALELLS WITH THE SENTIMENT THAT SHE EXPRESSED WITH HER OWN ANGER ABOUT LOSS OF A BABIES FATHER DO TO SOME SORT OF DRUG RELATED NAD POLICE FAILURES IN JAIL SITUATION I WOULD GATHER FROM WHAT I READ.
AS MY OWN LIFE WAS BOUT TO COME TO AN END OFF THE INDIFFERENCES OF DOCTORS NAD THE FAMILY WHO I HAD TO BEG TO COME TO SENSE TO COME BETWEEN DOCTORS WHO IGNORED MY CONDITIONS THAT WOULD TAKE MY MIRACLE STORY TO AN END. I GOT NO REACTIONS. MAYBE HAD EXPECTED WHAT I WOULD HAVE REACTED TO IF IT WERE ME , I WROTE TO TO GET VERY FAST INVOLVED TO COME BETWEEN MY FATE WITHOUT TIME TO SPARE NOT TO TOTALY IGNORE IT. BUT IGAVE SOME THOUGHT AS TO MAYBE SHE DID NOT COME TO BLOGS OR WAS NOT THERE ANY MORE. I DO NOT KNOW. IF IT WAS THE SAME INDIFFERENCES SHOWN TO HER FRIEND IN HIS TIME OF DEATH OR TEST OF FATE, THEN SHE FAILED TO HOLD UP TO HER OWN STANDARDS OR ANGER TO STOP THE CYCLES I SOCIETY. SINCE I KNOW THAT MY BROTHER IN LAW COULD NOT UPHOLD HIS OWN WORDS LET ALONE STANDARDS AND THEY WERE ALL ALIKE. THAT I FELT THAT OSMEONE WHO DID NOT WANT TO BECOME THE PERSONS BEFORE THEM MIGHT HAVE IT DOWN AFTER DEATH AND REACT IN SOME PROACTIVE MANNER, BUT I GOT NO REACTION AT ALL. DESPITE ALL MY WORDS HAD ALL TO DO WITH SAME ANGER ON MY OWN BEHALF THAT I WAS GOING TO LOSE A MIRACLE TO NOT HAVE BEEN MADE INTO A MENTALY DAMGED OR CASE, AFTER YERAS OF THESE PEOPLE IGNORING MY BEGGING FOR LIFE. WHAT KIND OF SICK MIND WOULD IGNORE A KID IN STREETS OF NYC , BEGGING FOR LIFE NAD GO OUT AND SNORT COCAINE AND DRINK PARTY AND MAKE ART AND NOT EVEN CONSIDER WHAT WOJLD HAPPEN TO ME. MY ESCAPING DID NOT MEAN THAT THIS WAS NOT REAL OR NOT HAPPEN OR I WOULD SURVIVE AGAIN. IT MEANT I WAS GIVEN ONE LAST CHANCE TO HAVE MY LIFE , WITHOUT THEIR HELP AND THEY FAILED. IF THEY WANTED TO IMPROVE THEY HAD A CHANCE TO REGRET OR REFLECT AND DID NOT . BUT WHEN SOMEONE IN THIS STORY GOT A CHANCE TO REMOVE THE LIF EI GOT BACK AGAIN MY MOUTH FLEW OPEN , MY LETTERS EMAILS THIS TIME EMAIL MADE IT EASIER AND I BEGAN TO BEG BEFORE IT TOOK AWAY MY QUALITY OF LIFE. I WOULD ASSUME IF HER BABIES FATHER WERE ABLE TO DO THAT IF HE WER CONCIOUS OF WHAT WAS TAKING PLACE AND HIS OWN DEATH HE WOULD DONE THE SAME. THEY CALL THIS BEING A PROBLEM OR MENTAL ILLNESS. HOWEVER THESE SAME PEOPLE HAVE CATS , WHO THEY RESPECT MORE THAN CHILD OR PEOPLE AN TREAT WITH CONCERNS THAT ARE INSANE EXCENTRIC AND NOT PEOPLE WHO THEY USED AS KID FOR ENTERTAINMENT YOUTH AND OTHER.
I MYSELF WOULD AHVE CALLED IN POLICE DETECTIVE AND OTHER TO FIND OUT WHAT TOOK PLACE UP TO THE DAY OF MY DEMISE which left me so cripppled and robbed of quality of life i cant recall what normal or real life is again and may never function again from who and what took place. giving who and what army , of evil a open door to again after so many years of escape recovery just finishing my last phased of recovery from near death torture, to happen again. insanity is the repeating of mistakes and not getting result.
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